Happy Valentine's day!

Happy Valentine's everyone! I hope you all have a great day! And for all the singles out there... Don't worry, I feel you guys :') Andd... for today's story is a 'Lesson learnt' mode from my previous experience. Thanks to my bestie to help me realise where did I do wrong. Anyway... This is my today's story....

After watching a movie on this valentine's day, my friend and I had the typical talk we always have on the way to my home. It is the only time we can have our serious conversation. I asked him if I am annoying, and he said a little. I was confused at the time, I was thinking "How come he said I'm only a little annoying? I am Super-Duper annoying in every single aspect!"

I asked him which attitude of me that's annoying, he said the part when I am so indecisive. I acknowledge that I could be the most indecisive person on the earth, and suddenly there is this one memory popped up in my head, but I said nothing to my bestie. We continue talking and we were talking about one of my best friend and her (ex)boyfriend. And continued talking about him and his ex.

Stuff happened between me, him and his ex. I'm pretty sure I did something wrong towards them even though they always say its not my fault, but you know, that guilty feeling that always lingers. Yeah. That kind of feeling. If you know what I mean. Well, if you don't. What I meant is that every time the topic about him and his ex comes up it always makes me feel bad. Because I didn't know if I actually did something wrong or not. If I did not, why do I always this guilty feelings and if I did, what did I wrong.

I have been thinking and feeling guilty for almost.... a year..? I guess... I never been brave enough to ask him about it. So I always been thinking about it all by myself. Alone. Only me, myself and I. Well at least now I won't wonder any more. I didn't actually ask him the question but he did tell me a story where everything becomes clear. I understand why I always feel guilty about what happened, because what I did was wrong.

Why did I do that? Because I didn't know the whole story. I was judging only based on what I know. I judge based on the past without seeing the fact that the present is getting better. I was blinded with anger and being bias by only using the fact that I know to make the judgement without trying to find out the whole story.

I wasn't trying to find out the rest of the story because I assumed all I know was the only thing happening. I feel bad and disappointed at myself. I knew what I know at that time wasn't the whole story but the anger drives me and makes me put aside the missing piece of puzzle of the story and ignore the fact that the missing puzzle might be the main point of what is happening.

I regret what I did back then plus what happened was not pleasant to remember. However, no matter how much I regret I guess there is nothing such a thing as turning back the time or erase the past. But I do learn my lesson and I hope with this lesson the history will no repeat itself. So, what did I learn?

• Be kind. Like legit. Be kind to everyone not for their acknowledgement that you are a good person. But be kind because everyone have their own problems and they have been through a lot of stuff. Trust me, you don't want to be a burden for them.
• Don't judge. I know it sounds so classic. But we do judge people secretly aren't we? But now I realise that judging other people is not a good thing. You can say to yourself that you don't want to be like what they become but never ever judge them of what they have become now. You don't know what happen in their life and you will never know their full story of their life doesn't matter how close you guys are. If you can't see which perspective they are looking from and feel what they feel, don't even try to judge them.
• Emotion blind you to see what you need to see. Seeing what you want and what you need to see is two different thing. Seeing what you want is like you are fooling yourself with only looking through the facts that support your argument. Don't make the same mistake that I did. It might cost you a lot. It almost cost me the friendship. Good thing it didn't, but it might. It's scary. Trust. Me.
• If what you mean by pride is about being proud of yourself, it's not something to be protected. What need to be protected is what other feels. Which means, don't be ashamed to say "Sorry" just because you are so proud of yourself and you don't want to be wrong or worse, you don't want to accept that you are wrong. Sometimes, even if we did nothing wrong, but if by saying "Sorry" can make a person day better or clear up the hard feelings, then say it. "Sorry" is a powerful word especially when you say it sincerely.

So those are the 4 lessons I learnt today. I hope we all won't do stupid mistake that I did back then. I know the mistake I did can't be undone,beside, rather than regretting it, I think it's better to take the lesson and trying to not make the same mistake twice right? ;)

Be kind others. Do not judge. Think logically, and always remember your friendship is worth every single sorry that you need to say. Losing a friend does not worth your ego. I hope we all learn something from my experience :p and once again Happy Valentines day!! Mkbye! :D

PS : Please don't mind any of the grammatical error. Love you people <3